Under my photoID it says I'm a gerally happy person. Thats not 100 percent correct. What makes me happy? Shannon, my family, and photography. It feels like something is missing. This year, 2009 has been the worst year of my life. No, it hasnt been terrible, but it wasnt good. Not at all.
So this year I found myself searching for my happiness. "When was the last time I was happy?" I always ask. Well in September of '08 I had a really amazing boyfriend named, Mike. I was just...'Out of this world' happy. He broke up with me after a while and things just started to get...Sad. Sometimes i hear my mind saying "Holly, you gotta wake up." It seems somtimes I'm oblivious to the world around me now a days. And I absolutely HATE IT.
When I think back to when I was happy, I consider the fact that mabey I'm just lonely. Like I need someone to hold me and say "everything will be okay."
Every birthday candle, every shooting star, every eyelash, and every dandilion ive ever wished upon, I wished for Love.
I dont care when it comes, or who it may come from. I just wish for it. And I want it to be true.
Sometimes I wonder if thats whats preventing me from being happy. But either way, I want to be happy again.Ill do whatever it takes.
I want to be AWAKE.
Somebody Help Me